I've Been Away For Too Long

I haven't posted in a really long time.

Sorry... 

But I'm back, and better then ever.

I think... 

I don't recall if I posted this but i have a  new girlfriend. 

And she's amazing.

I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so very in love with her. 

She's everything to me and i do everything in my power to make her happy. :)

And good news about me and her, she lives 1 mile from my house and her parents really like me.

And my parents haven't really met her or talked to her much... but my mom really liked her. :D 

But yeah, its great having her soooooo close so its not just an at school relationship.

I can officially say that I made out with a girl in my own home... 

I feel successful... XD

Do you know what sucks?

Drama.

I cant stand it... And there's been a lot of that stuff lately...

My ex girlfriend wont except the fact that I have moved on. 

Why cant she do the same?

She talks so much crap about me... And my girlfriend who she probably isn't even acquainted with so she has no right to judge her...

But she talks so much crap about me...

If you hate me so much why do you insist on sticking around and messing things up for me by spreading rumors and other things?! 

It makes no sense to me...

Then again... I'm not a 14 year old girl with "problems".

And to add to all this... i have an entire 2 period class full of Drama bombs...

"THIS GUY BEAT ME AND THE COPS ARE INVOLVED AND MY MOM SUCKS AND I CUT MYSELF!!!! I'M GONNA SHOUT THIS OUT SO EVERYONE CAN POOR THEIR ATTENTION ALL OVER ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (not what someone actually said but equally as "depressing")

If you were actually going through something! Then you wouldn't shout it for all the world to hear!!!

Id love to meet the guys these freaks complain about to see if they're just as mind boggled as I am...

Anyway... off the depressing stuff...

Bioshock Infinite released and incredible!!!!!

Creepy as heck setting and story... Just how it should be...

Assassins Creed 4 and Battlefield 4 announced. 

AC4 Trailer

AC4 Game play Trailer. Forgive the commentary at the end... 

And BF4 stuff...

SONG OF AWESOMENESS!

Anyway... I'm basically done

Bye Bye.

No One Loves Me, And Neither Do I

"No one loves me... neither do Iyou get what you give,and I give goodbye'n if i should vanishdon't get caught off guarddon't hold it against meunless it gets hard."
The past couple days have  had their pros and cons.Valentines Day is obviously tomorrow, and I'm kinda depressed because everyone around me is either mad about that or they're calling it "Singles Awareness Day".
Come on guys! Have a cookie, dance with someone. The days about happiness and love. Not moaping over the fact that you don't have a significant other. And why don't you get one? Ask someone to be you're valentine! And if that doesn't work, don't ruin it for every one.
I HATE it when people do that.Just because they're not having a good day or time, they have to ruin it for everyone else. I hate it when people do it blatantly, but do you know whats worse.When they do it "subtly".When someone acts depressed or sad or angry or disturbed just because they feel like they're not getting enough attention. because they have "problems" and they need "help". Ugh... I hate it...
I almost had an anger explosion today.I don't know if I've ever talked about my anger issues on here.Well if I haven't, I have an extremely short temper,and the things that get me angry randomly change.For instance, today, Aspen (my ex) and her friend Sarah were singing in biology. They were singing some shitastic (pardon my french,but that's what I think of almost all pop) pop song with a style of singing that makes my ears and mind catch fire and sting and burn. And it was irritating me and making me angry.I asked them to stop in a way that expressed that it was irritating me. and they did for like a minute. Then they started singing again and they were singing a song that Aspen knows i hate with a burning passion. A passion that only matches my hatred for swag fags, the word packet, and communism. Good time by Owl Shitty and Carly Rae Shitsen...I don't exactly remember my reaction,but i know that i got really pissed off and yelled something. then I said something like "Stop singing that shitacular song." and then I said that they were both obnoxious. And then I having to hold back yelling and screaming and after that I kinda stormed out of the classroom. I felt bad afterwards though... because I knew it was a result of my anger problems. So I've apologized.But yeah...
Anyway, I hope YA'LL have a CUTE Valentines Day.
Awesome SONG! Warning: Suggestive lyrics

Where do I go from here?

Have you ever felt lost. Not in the physical world, but in your mind, in your spirit, in yourself? I know what I want. I know what my goal is. But I cant find the path...

"Life happens wherever you are, whether you make it or not." ~ Iroh

That's all i have for today. 

LIFE FLERBING BLOWS!!!! DONT LET ANYONE TELL YOU FLERBING OTHERWISE!!!!!!!

So as you can tell by the title, stuff, frankly, for me has freaking sucked lately.

I was super sick, one of the reasons I haven't posted recently. I also found out i have crater in my skull. i had to get a ct scan for that.

I'm going to see a tonsle guy about getting my tonsles out. First surgery. 

Its still undecided if we're gonna do anything about my skull indentation. they say its not affecting my brain, so as long as its not getting bigger. I'm good.

TONS AND TONS OF DRAMA AT SCHOOL! I DO NOT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.

All you need to know is that i broke up with my girlfriend, me and her are on good terms now, but because of this whole thing, two people that I'm sure aren't even acquainted hater each other with a "burning" passion.

Oh drama, we all fucking love it. its the fucking best... sorry bout my language, but if you're gonna read this blog, you'll have to get used to it.

I'm finally free of the evil bonds that... Novel Writing... *shiver* held me in. So that's good.

And that's really all I have to talk about.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUQOAsq-C2A

I don't like Twilight, I know this song from the awesome artist.

And I'm pretty much 100% sure this song means a lot to some people.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zfzdHSGGPAM

This song is  awesome and totally irrelevant  I have no idea what the meaning is. and this is the only good video i could find of it. i guess it works with my previous Russian post. XD

See you guys later.

Bayu Bayushki

You might be wondering what the title reads and means
Is an old Russian lullaby that has fairly dark lyrics for being a children's lullaby.
I am like, obsessed with Russia right no, and I don't know why!!! O-O
Well maybe's its because this game that's coming is one that I really want and it takes place in Russia!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95LF-JBRMOs
The lullaby the women's singing to her child is the one that the title is.
This is a really cool video though. :P

But not everything is all hunky dorry lately...
I've been having a problem...
A religious problem...
I was born into an LDS family.
I made a choice and was baptized into the church.
I made a choice and was ordained and given the priesthood.
But I've lost faith.
Not in the LDS religion. Just religion as a whole
Mainly because I pray and plead, but i get nothing. I've never felt the spirit. I've never felt God, or Jesus, or The Holy Ghost. I've never felt their comfort when I've asked for. I've never received guidance when i asked for it. I've gotten nothing. And I've lost hope in anything. I'm just probably gonna go agnostic like my brother and my friend Ethan.

I've also been really annoyed by all the anti fire arm stuff lately. Wanting to ban guns. Seriously, any idiot who thinks banning guns will stop criminals has no idea what the f*** they're talking about. They're criminals! They break the law! You think banning guns will stop them?! It'll make it worse! Since when did they listen?!

         And if they ever do start heavily restricting or start taking away guns. I would fight.
I would rather die in the mud with my brothers in arms than live an oppressed life. than live a life of lies.

I have that flag hanging on my wall, along with the stars and stripes.
I would die for America, no doubt about it.
I even plan on it.
That's why I want to join the military.
I want to fight and die doing so.
And if I live, I'll have honor, I'll have had courage, and I'll have some stories to tell.
Im not a big fan of Linkin Park, But i love this music video and i like the song. And the quote at the end is one of my favorite quotes of all time.
Anyway, I'll stop my ranting now.
Bye.

My Last Post Was Kinda Lame So I'm Doing Another One

Yup.
I'm doing a second post today.

I'm screwed.
My 130 pages for my novel writing class are due Thursday and i only have 43 pages.
You're probably thinking "Than type your book instead! don't waste time on this!"
But i have horrible writers block and I don't have any ideas and writing a book is a lot harder than most of you guys would probably think.

I haven't really told you guy what my books about, have I... :P
Well in the near future, there's a huge earth quake in the united states that ravages the entire western half of the country. The federal government tries to help but the president gets assassinated and then the vice president takes his place. The vice president then passes an act making it so the problem with the west will not be important or dealt with until 2025 and that until then the western US is quarantined. The books about a revolution in 2018.
I have the whole story planned out in my head. but putting it into to words is so much harder than you would think. And very time consuming.
Its also harder for me to write because its not post apocalyptic. Maybe i just should have wrote about my other stories like Jay Hawk or The Legend Of The Phantom Army or All Alone, all of which are my best including Bloods Color, the one I'm writing for the class. All of which are series by the way.

Jay Hawk is about a bounty hunter who goes by the name Jay Hawk obviously. Each book would be about the strange different clients he serves and bounties he goes for. They wouldn't have a ton of connection to each other except for some reoccurring characters.

The Legend of The Phantom Army is my oldest and most thought through story. It takes place after a nuclear apocalypse and starts being about the struggles of a small settlement that's struggling with raiders and bandits attacking. The main character is the leader of the settlement, Mckenna Crawford and she eventually leads her people out of the settlement and begins traveling to a larger city that's fortified and protected from the wasteland. On the way the refugees get attacked and are forced back into a strange canyon. They continue to travel through it and find out it territory of the legendary Phantom Army. The army had been around for hundreds of years and there were many stories and legends about it. Mckenna makes a deal with the leader of the phantom army , The Phantom, and he helps defend their settlement from the attackers. The story picks up from there...

All Alone is more of a love survival story. There's action, but its not long and large scale, its quick and small scale between like 3 or 4 people. its about a young man about 15 whose family was killed and he's been wandering the wilderness ever since. He rescues a girl from a slave trader and they become friend's then they fall in love. Its also really realistic and brutal. unlike the other two which would be super of the top action stories.
And yes...
I write romance...

Do me a favor, tell me what one of my ideas i should write next out of those 3 above.
That would be highly appreciated. :D

I love playing bass guitar. :P
Its so much fun.
You feel so powerful when you just play the E string open and your whole has shakes.
I'm learning how to play this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TsNUuMipAAo
I want to make up my own stuff though, but you cant write stuff on a bass really.
That's why when when i master the bass I'm gonna learn guitar.
I want to write songs.
and frankly, I also cant write lyrics worth shit.
its the truth. :/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NeBjhpw_Ee0
There's a song for ya'll.
Bye. :D


    

Alchemist

To start this post, here's a song y'all can listen to! :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0kPRcIrQeSg (WARNING: Language)
It's a pretty cool techno song. I love one part in the beginning though!
Its the 8-bit segment. O-O
if you don't know what that is, you'll realize when you hear it.
It sounds like an old Nintendo Entertainment System.

Anyway, on to some more serious stuff...
HAPPY FREAKING NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had very tasty food last night. VERY TASTY ALL AMERICAN FOOD.
Then i watched the freakiest version of Snow White.

And when i went to bed last night i was in a very soul searchy mood.
I've stated that i want to join the military, and i was thinking of what would happen. and all the possible things that could happen.

I want to  let everyone know that I'm not one of those idiots who thinks real life combat is like it is in Call of Duty or Battlefield 3. Its not even like airsofting. Its something I will never understand until experience it for my own.
And I plan on doing so.

Here's a song for you guys to change up the serious tone! XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OL21eZwMpqI

Its a cool song as well.

and it has a cat. :P

Peace.